Hello just a few words,gay has ruined my life,i cameout three years ago in July 2005 and my whole life was ruined,i loss all friends and have just family members who still love me.I loss my job a week after i cameout,they said there was a budget cut and a month later my car engine went.I haven't been able to get a job anywhere.My brother decided when i cameout,to hurt me he would spread that i was gay all over the county,he also told me he hoped i died of aids.I don't fit the gay community and i don't fit in the straight community.I feel alone and sad.

I'm sorry it's been so rough for you Howie. Trust me, there are a LOT more gay Christians out there than you think! I suggest strongly to look up a "welcoming" church near where you live (look under the Church Directory on the web site). If your looking to find more gay Christians then a denomination like the non denominational, MCC, TEN or one of the Alliance churches would work. All four focus their ministry in the gay community (but not exclusely) so there are more gay folks in these churches. As far as styles of worship go. The non denominational, Alliance and TEN tend to be Charasmatic/Word centered. MCC can vary a lot from church to church.

Howie:

I certainly can feel your sadness and loneliness. I completely understand how you feel like you don't fit in the gay world or the christian world. I struggled with that for 2 years after coming to terms with my sexuality. I finally just decided to be me. It gets better. Keep praying and lean on others for support!

God Bless
Carol

Howie,

After reading your post, I wish that I and the other members here could be there with you and give you a great big hug.

I know it seems like you are totally alone. I also know how it feels to be betrayed by a family member (tho' in my case, it was not about my sexuality). But, you are definitely NOT alone, Howie. There are so many of us who also deal with being gay and also being Christian. It can get better, Howie. You will find a lot of support here, including a lot of material about the struggle with our faith. Seek out good sources of support locally, too. Thanks for posting on this site, reaching out. YOu're doing the right thing.

searcher