I dont know if you are still coming to this site but your story has helped me a lot. I feel the same that you do about God and it means so much to know that I'm not a lone so if you read this... Thanks for posting.

What blyth had to say all those years a go helped so much. I thank God for all of you!

I've been realizing that the enemy was using my fear against me and my relationship with God. Pray for our mending please.