I won't try to top what Elaine has said because she says it better than I ever could! So let me just encourage you that you are not alone. We all doubt and have periods when we wish we weren't gay. That's the societal pressures we have all around us.

After searching...just as you are doing now...I came to terms with my sexuality. Then God provided me with a relationship that I didn't think existed! He picked her just for me and WOW am I blessed!

I'm excited for you, Marius Mota, for you are young and will have a 10 year jump on me! I didn't accept being a lesbian until I was married with children.

Keep searching and seeking...God will bless you richly!

Carol

hey Elaine,

thanks for ur response. I was curious, what is this book that u wrote? i would like to read it, if possible... and

i have an idea. Is like everyone studying homosexuality or like people who work with gays... gay themselves?

and oh another question...
do you think its right for me at my age to like start searching for a partner? And like, as you know it will be hard finding a fellow gay christian as myself. If it were to be ok.. where can i start looking? or is it just about waiting?

Ps. thank you New Song

Hey Marius, If I recall, you said you're just about 20....I say, LOOK AWAY!! A good place to start may be by posting a personals ad here on these boards in the personals section.

Another might be to find a GLBT accepting church in your area. (look in the church directory in http://www.gaychurch.org )

You can also search the web for Christian GLBT message boards or groups in your area. Or even just regular GLBT message boards and groups near you....you never know...someone else there might also be a Christian!!

It IS hard, and it IS about waiting...but God does have a plan for each of us, so it is also about trusting Him and having faith in Him.

*smiles*

shy

Hey Marius shy's got some good ideas to find a 'like minded' partner. Post a personal here, fellowship with other GLBT Christians and start attending a local 'welcoming' church in your area. Straight or gay alike it doesn't matter. The best place to find a wonderful partner is by doing the things you love the most and seeing who else also likes them. The best relationships are built around friendship. I can also attest to the fact that having a Christian partner is also super important. If they're not Christian then they will never understand this whole dimension to your life and it will always cause friction (unless they come to the Lord through you of course). Plus having God and the Holy Spirit in the middle of your relationship sure does help!

As for my book it should be out soon from iUniverse. When it is I'll let everyone know and post it up on the bookstore. By the way - the bookstore is almost open for business! I'm finishing categorizing the books now and should have something 'officially' up today or tomorrow - time permitting. It is an awesome list of books!

And I'd also like to highly recommend a book I read recently: The Children Are Free.

Through it, I found solid answers and real peace with who I am — and who I've always been since earliest memory.

Yes I've heard some really good stuff about this book as well. I have it in the book store and plan to buy it as soon as I'm done with the book I'm currently reading. Jeff Miner "The Children are Free"

I just posted something that was simular. Ever wonder why we all wonder if it's right? I'm just as purplexed. However I have no guilt or conviction for being with my wife. The only guilt that I have had is feeling guilty about not feeling guilty.(?) I just want true conviction from the Holy Spirit, conviction like I have about drinking cheating lieing stealing cursing ect. One can interpret the Bible in 10thousand ways in all the many languages, people can point their fingers at you with condemnation and hate, you could twist the Bible to make it say what you wish, you could pretend your feelings dont exist and never find out the truth to subdue the questions but what good is any of it if it's not in your heart straight from God Himself? Keep up the search, dont be angry at God like I have been and do draw near Him. I'm right there with you.

Love Katt7

Another book that I think will help is called "Calling the Rainbow Nation Home" by (me). I pastored for years and found that my own life journey, and the issues I faced, were the same issues our congregants were facing. To help them I began writing down everything I had learned in my own life journey. A friend of mine, Darlene Bogle, who has written several books (unfortanetly for Exodus and others before she 'saw the light'!) encouraged me to consolidate my notes and get a book out. After several years of hard work and help from Darlene and others the book as done and is now in print.

The book (I hope!) is interesting and yet extremely informative. It answers many of the questions so many of us face. Questions like: Am I saved or going to hell? Is it a sin to be gay? Should I remain celibate? Why do you believe the Bible DOESN'T condemn homosexuality? Could I only be fooling myself into believing I'm 'ok' when I'm not? How can we explain the gifts of the HOly Spirit and the miracles we were seeing in our congregation? What was happening in the gay welcoming churches? Why can't our church leaders see the truth? The questions were endless and I've done my best to answer them all in this book. I think it can help you.

Um...
I can't say that I really know much about this, or even that I'm certain of my opinion. I don't know whether this is right or not, I came here to try and make my mind up.
I have heard that sexual orientation is determined by the effet or a mother's hormone's on the developing brain of a foetus, but I don't know if this is true.

I guess it doesn't really make a difference what makes us gay!

For myself, I know when something is not right in my life I lack an inner peace. It makes a differance the person we choose to be with, believer or unbeliever, if we are just sleeping around, seeing someone who is already with someone.. that doesn't mean God is telling me it is wrong to be gay. Then there is such a thing called false guilt. I believe it can be easy to take on false guilt or have doubts when others are try to find fault in our sexuality.

it may not say in the bible we are born gay or straight, but we are born in his image, we were all born in sin, but god had a plan and purpose for our life even before our seed was planted in the womb. We are to continually seek him for our fullfillment in our life with him. Let me bring this to your attention and to others. I have a friend who works here in a hospital, a baby was born the other day with both sex organs. Are we to choose which sex this baby should be for earthy situations or was this baby born in the image of our father? Are we not born in the image of God our Father? Were we not conformed to this world for him, and not the things of the world? or what the world calls it or what the father calls it? Are we to choose if this baby be a "girl" or a "boy"? Medical science was created by God by his people send on this earth for a plan and a purpose, but they still can not contest to their purpose or plan in God? How do we dicern what is right, what is wrong, were we born gay, were we born straight, were we born a boy, or were we born a girl? Who can really answer these questions but our Father in heaven. We continue to ask the questions "were we born"? We were born in Gods image, we were born for his purpose, his plan. We were born to walk like Christ, live like Christ, talk like Christ, preach like Christ, teach like Christ, heal like Christ and love like Christ. God showed us first LOVE, Christ showed us LOVE, we like God made in his image who sent his son Jesus Christ to show us his meaning for our lives all showed us LOVE. Where is our LOVE that we are showing. Life starts with LOVE and ends with LOVE. There are a lot of ways to LOVE. Seek him fully and he will show you his purpose and plan for your life. Fully!