I was posting a poem on my transgender blog and something I wrote really stirred my spirit.
I was thinking how our Lord needed no man yet left all his glory to come here to walk as a mere man and die for our sins.
What stirs me is that every morning when he woke up he knew HE was the only one that pleased God.
Everyone that was with him could only please God by following HIM daily. Not a one of them were good enough without him.
In the garden, on the mountain, and in a disciple's house he knew only he pleased God.
He was our example.
If I was straight I could no more please God than now. If I gave all my money (the little I have) away I could not please God.
The only way I can please God is to believe on Jesus in faith and try to please him.
Don't get me wrong. If I esteem being transgender above what his word says that is sin and a god before him that will damn me but even if I was straight and esteemed being straight before his word that too would be a god before him.
I guess what I'm trying to say in all this confusion is that why can't straight people show mercy if they feel we're lost and just share Jesus?
If he could know from morning til night that he alone pleased God and yet show mercy on all that would call upon him; why can't straight people just share Jesus with all who call upon his name and allow the Spirit of God to guide all involved?
O', I love him so! But; I can't help my feelings any more than a straight person can help having straight desires.
I'm not even sure what all I feel in this but something really stirs in me when I think about how he knew he alone pleased God while among man who couldn't.
Any ideas on this?
May God bless you.
Tiffany

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I guess what I'm trying to say in all this confusion is that why can't straight people show mercy if they feel we're lost and just share Jesus?

Hi Tiffany...nice to see you again!

I completely understand your question and the burning inside you. I can't understand why homophobic people need to condemn us instead of showing us God's love. We disagree on many things, but this is one area that is handled so poorly by the Church!

But it's not just this area! The Church has traditionally had problems dealing with things that were outside of the norm. When my husband left me, most of the people in my church did not rally around me. In fact, they went out of their way to avoid me. They didn't know what to say and some of them felt that the end of my marriage must have marked a problem in my Christian walk. Quite the contrary...it marked a problem in my husband's Christian walk!

The Church also did not handle discrimination very well in the mid 20th Century. But look where they are now!

So, the Church does not "get it" sometimes. But it really is up to this generation to start doing the right things. That's what brought about acceptance for African Americans. My church is about to start a Single Parent's support network...that's a nice change from where we were four years ago. Let's hope the next generation can get the glbt issue right...and let's hope we all get to witness it!

PS...If you are comfortable with it, can you put your blog url in your profile? There may be other transgenders that would like to get to know you better.

Dear Newsong;

Later on when I get my thoughts together a little more clearer I may post my blogsite. Right now I'm just kind of shy and not thinking too straight.
Thank you for your answer hon. I cherish your post and the friendship on this site.
Who knows; maybe shortly I'l have some major problems answered and be back to myself.
I'm glad to see you have a church that is making improvement.
May God bless you all.

Tiffany

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Don't get me wrong. If I esteem being transgender above what his word says that is sin and a god before him that will damn me but even if I was straight and esteemed being straight before his word that too would be a god before him.

Wow! Reading this for the second time. It really hit me hard tonight. I am praying for guidance of a similar sort, only regarding not making my church into an idol.

Here's something that you might want to try. I've been realizing in the last year how patriarchal and oppressive to women the language used in many churches is. So I'm experimenting with using feminine pronouns and images for God. It's really expanding my idea of who God is, and how limiting our labels can be for God and for ourselves.

Dear Jenny;

Thank you so much for your thoughts hon. It is easy to make a god out of anything.
I've been over on a transgender forum and have met some lovely ladies that just enjoy being female.
That may mean little to a GG but to me it's as though we have not made a god out of being a man in body, a girl in transition, a girl in spirit, or being transgender before our Lord.
It's not a Christian site but we have so much in common.
What I'm trying to say I guess is that our main focus should be on Jesus and who he is.
You see; if we worry about female oppression we have to watch that we don't go too far because our Lord is the husband to the church and our spiritual head.
As a MtF transgender I have no male ego to get in the way or be a god before my Lord. I wonder how many natural women have a male ego that gets in the way? We don't tend to think about women having a male ego but if you look up GID, or Gender Identity Dysphunction you will find FtM, or Female to male transgenders tend to reject female roles and the like.
Sometimes I wonder if most of the straight women that want to dress like and do the things men have always done don't have GID and just not know it? I mean those who go beyond moderation in equality and freedom from oppression.
I wish you well with your quest and I do so hope that you keep Jesus and the preaching of his word as brought forth by his spirit first in your search.
I'm happy being female and have no problem with the Lord being my husband, head, master, betrothed, keeper, champion and captain, Lord and Christ over me. I gladly bow my knees before him!
I'm also happy to be his betrothed, damsel, maid, virgin (spiritually), handmaid and one day bride and wife.
I wish you well and hope you find the church that is right for you.
May God bless you.

Tiffany