The Name of the Lord is a Strong Tower; the righteous run to It and are safe. Proverbs 18:10

For much of my life, I had very few earthly supports; my parents had disowned me, and my grandmother was dead. I had friends...I always had friends, but it is not always the same as family. The struggles I went through I felt very alone in. In fact, I could feel lonely in a crowd of people. As much as I loved my Christian family, I still felt somewhat alienated. Many of them had come from fairly good families, and had no idea what it was like to be disowned. I am grateful that many of them chose to stay in my life and love me in my deep depressions and pain. Yet no matter how much they loved me and tried to be a support, it wasn't enough. The pain I had experienced of being totally rejected permeated my being. Deep within me was a hatred of my adopted mother than I could not shake, and this was hard for people to understand who loved their mothers. I was, to put it frankly, a bit strange. There were times in my life, such as Christmas that I would work through the day so I did not have to think about what was missing. As hard as I worked, I was not able to forget, especially with the holidays joyously swirling around me. I was just putting off the emptiness and the pain for another day. Pouring it into an old wineskin that would eventually burst.
Now, in hindsight, I can see that I had all the support I needed. I had the Lord. And He truly was with me through the darkest hours and the loneliest Christmas days. He stood in my life, like a sheltering rock in the midst of a storm. He bound me to Himself, and kept me from drifting away. I did not see this because I was more interested in support with skin. But even the people that were there for me were there because He sent them to me.
What struggles are you going through? What pains are filling your heart? What is making you feel alone and lonely? Within it all, God is there. As you cannot see the anchor that holds the ship firmly, neither can you see Him holding you. Run to Him; His Name is a Strong Tower and will not let you down.

Blyth,
I so enjoy your devotionals. Have you thought of complying them into a book? Don't know how it would sell, but I know there are a lot of us here who really enjoy them!!

Hey Groucho, I think I had that idea first!

I would love to see a you make a collection of devotionals Blyth. They speak volumes. Thank you for continuing to share with us.

Kayti

"Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6